Today, I stayed back with a group of classmates to revise and discuss about Mathematics and Principles of Accounting.
I sat there alone , out of the group and I was quietly doing my work until I realize that ... he was there too.
Ignoring his presence, I continued with my work.
But what hurts me most is, he didn't even approach me at all. For the whole time, he found excuses to stay away from me. I don't get it, what's wrong? We got on the same bus earlier this morning as well, but he seemed to lost his concern for me.
There wasn't a single bit of concern at all. I just wonder if he treats me as invisible or just non-existent.
But speaking of which, shouldn't I be the one doing that? I should be the one mad at him and now he is showing me this kind of attitude.
Never mind. I don't really understand him well.
Are we going to stay this way for the rest of the years to come?
Or find a day , or the greatest opportunity to patch up our friendship?
I regret. I don't wish to break this friendship within us. But he made the situation worst by leaving me all alone.
Even knowing that nobody else beside himself and another classmate would hang out with me, he refused to acknowledge me as a friend once again.
Hope there will be a day , we clear our misunderstandings with each other and resolve this issue.
20 September 2011
16 September 2011
Today
Its a fine day today. The weather is humid and hot as usual. Exams are around the corner and yet i am just slacking off...
Tomorrow we have to go back to school for additional physics lessons..
I'm not complaining about that, its just that I hope it will not be a waste of time. Hopefully we all learn something within that short period tomorrow.
Anyway, there's something I'd like to ask , for a very long time..
What do you consider a true friendship?
It can vary for different people.
But for me, I just feel that true friendship is when your friends are there for you , by your side when you need them. Regardless of the situation, or reason, a true friend will always do what he can for you.
"Friends" that only become friends with you , because they have a motive or purpose for doing so, are not really your true friend isn't it..
Similar to the situation I face in school...
People suddenly become my "friend" only when they NEED me.
When I'm of no use, I'm left alone again. But it doesn't mean I don't have true friends. In fact I do. I appreciate and I am grateful to them.
They give me the hope and that's why i'm still going strong until today.
I can survive in this loneliness, but not forever.
Without them, I don't think my life would be meaningful, or purposeful.
Its like a lack of oxygen. When they are gone, you can't breathe and eventually die, silently.
Tomorrow we have to go back to school for additional physics lessons..
I'm not complaining about that, its just that I hope it will not be a waste of time. Hopefully we all learn something within that short period tomorrow.
Anyway, there's something I'd like to ask , for a very long time..
What do you consider a true friendship?
It can vary for different people.
But for me, I just feel that true friendship is when your friends are there for you , by your side when you need them. Regardless of the situation, or reason, a true friend will always do what he can for you.
"Friends" that only become friends with you , because they have a motive or purpose for doing so, are not really your true friend isn't it..
Similar to the situation I face in school...
People suddenly become my "friend" only when they NEED me.
When I'm of no use, I'm left alone again. But it doesn't mean I don't have true friends. In fact I do. I appreciate and I am grateful to them.
They give me the hope and that's why i'm still going strong until today.
I can survive in this loneliness, but not forever.
Without them, I don't think my life would be meaningful, or purposeful.
Its like a lack of oxygen. When they are gone, you can't breathe and eventually die, silently.
15 September 2011
Damn..
Stop making me feel sorry.
Why am I the one feeling sorry instead of you?
Ditching me there when you made a group of new friends?
Why pretend to show that your concerned when you aren't.
Doing all these things to spite me? I don't think it is effective.
I was so foolish to make friends with you.
Had I known that it'll turn out this way..
I wouldn't even consider hanging out with you.
I regret wasting my time on you, for all that I've done for you,
I got nothing back in return, or maybe only sadness that you give me.
Seriously?
Treating me invisible when we cross paths at the corridors?
Have our friendship gone down the drain? Do you even value the time we spend together?
Do you? I doubt so. When I ignored you that day, were you thinking that leaving me alone , would be the best decision?
NO!
I just wanted you to clear up things with me...
But you misunderstood and never talked to me ever since.
Not a single text message, a single phone call , a single conversation with you
ever since the start of this semester. Why are you treating me this way?
I thought we were on good terms before the long school holiday...
Fine.. If that's the way you want it to be,
Then so be it.
Friendships cannot be forced.
I won't need a third party to resolve this issue, because I know that all the efforts will be in vain.
If you know i'm talking about you, then tell me you do. It's not like you don't know, that I don't have much friends around me. I don't socialize a lot, but yet you still became my friend.
I gave you so many opportunities, so many chances. You never gave much thought to it, and even ignored me more than ever.
I silently kept my head down when I had so much to say, but all the words were choked-up in my throat.
Stop making me feel sorry.
Why am I the one feeling sorry instead of you?
Ditching me there when you made a group of new friends?
Why pretend to show that your concerned when you aren't.
Doing all these things to spite me? I don't think it is effective.
I was so foolish to make friends with you.
Had I known that it'll turn out this way..
I wouldn't even consider hanging out with you.
I regret wasting my time on you, for all that I've done for you,
I got nothing back in return, or maybe only sadness that you give me.
Seriously?
Treating me invisible when we cross paths at the corridors?
Have our friendship gone down the drain? Do you even value the time we spend together?
Do you? I doubt so. When I ignored you that day, were you thinking that leaving me alone , would be the best decision?
NO!
I just wanted you to clear up things with me...
But you misunderstood and never talked to me ever since.
Not a single text message, a single phone call , a single conversation with you
ever since the start of this semester. Why are you treating me this way?
I thought we were on good terms before the long school holiday...
Fine.. If that's the way you want it to be,
Then so be it.
Friendships cannot be forced.
I won't need a third party to resolve this issue, because I know that all the efforts will be in vain.
If you know i'm talking about you, then tell me you do. It's not like you don't know, that I don't have much friends around me. I don't socialize a lot, but yet you still became my friend.
I gave you so many opportunities, so many chances. You never gave much thought to it, and even ignored me more than ever.
I silently kept my head down when I had so much to say, but all the words were choked-up in my throat.